4th Times the Charm

As I’m traveling to India for my 4th trip I head into the trip with mixed feelings. It’s a combination of excitement and apprehension as there’s not only work things on my mind but my personal life as well. I won’t say I’m not scared to go but it’s something a bit out of my control and I have to keep reminding myself that it’s in God’s hands.

I’m excited about this trip because the project that I have been diligently working on is about to come to fruition. We are fixing to go live and it’s a very exciting time for us. All of the hours of efforts, the sleepless nights, the 3am phone calls all come together to create the launch and go-live for our project. It’s a highly anticipated launch and many groups are depending on it so I am excited to be a part of it and see it through the launch.

I am a bit apprehensive though because I worry about Krista. I’m not going to lie, I’m a bit scared and anxious to see what the doctor says for her medical conditions. It worries me a lot and it rightly should. However, I do have to remind myself that no matter what happens, it’s what God intended. I don’t think that He would give Krista anything she can’t handle. I know that she’s been in pain and things seem to be worse but I’m confident that the doctor can adjust what needs to be fixed and Krista can get to a stable state.

As I mentioned in previous entries I think this whole experience has really tested my ability to provide help and to be very patient. It is difficult to see everyday and not be able to do much. But with everything in life, we are set to learn important lessons from them. This is why it gives me a bit of comfort to keep believing that everything will turn out ok. Don’t get me wrong, I wish I could stay and take care of Krista but I still feel confident that everything will be ok even without me there. I have faith that God will provide.

That being said, I want to focus on the positives of the trip and being able to work with my team in person again. It’s always a joy being able to see people face to face and the relationships that you can form and reinforce in person especially with working halfway across the globe is invaluable. I think everyone is quite ready for us to launch the project and are anxiously anticipating us succeeding. It’s been a long time coming and I think for me this 4th trip is going to be a great one.